Coils

I want you to think im cool

I want you to admire me

Im afraid you can see through me

And find out that im not

And find out you actually hate me

What is it that will change your mind?

I dont know, but if i feel this fear,

There must be something there.

There is a danger lurking underneath

That will show me to be fraud.

I must do better, maybe then I wont be afraid.

The further i look, the deeper it is.

The more nebulous it becomes,

The riskier it feels.

I’ll coil around myself like a rattle snake

And hiss to be left alone.

If i’m alone, maybe i wont have to deal with this fear.