I want you to think im cool
I want you to admire me
Im afraid you can see through me
And find out that im not
And find out you actually hate me
What is it that will change your mind?
I dont know, but if i feel this fear,
There must be something there.
There is a danger lurking underneath
That will show me to be fraud.
I must do better, maybe then I wont be afraid.
The further i look, the deeper it is.
The more nebulous it becomes,
The riskier it feels.
I’ll coil around myself like a rattle snake
And hiss to be left alone.
If i’m alone, maybe i wont have to deal with this fear.
