My weaknesses, my demons lazzines and procrastination. My vice, comfort and ease It seems a monumental undertaking To gather enough energy To break the stasis A bubbling desire, a sensed greatness Shackled down by fear and uncertainty What a demon to fight? When it offers comfort as an alternative.
Author Archives: closetsocialonline
Frustrated by life
Frustrated by life Frustrated by me Frustrated by you Don’t know where it all began But I don’t want to it end like this. It’s been so long, I doubt I’ll recognize my heart North, South, East or West? Up or down? The doubt holds me down. Holds me in frustration.
How long
How long can you wait? Before making a decision you always knew you should take, but waited in inaction for things to change. How many years will go by? Living and disliking your life, ashamed and guilty. How much punishment can you take? Or will you wait for it to break you? Force you toContinue reading “How long”
The Man in the mirror (in the agony of becoming)
As I splash water on my face and look in the mirror, I realize I have never been the man anyone wanted me to be. Not exactly, and not entirely. As far as expectations go, any expectations people had of me, or that I had for myself, always felt like boxes. Boxes that don’t exactlyContinue reading “The Man in the mirror (in the agony of becoming)”
There are no shoulders for men to cry on
Not without consequences Not without letting people down Not without loosing confidence Not without loosing self worth Not true! You might think.. But what do you expect from men? If he’s expected to lead, he can’t appear weak If he’s expected to solve problems He can’t appear confused If he’s expected to be the rockContinue reading “There are no shoulders for men to cry on”
Coils
I want you to think im cool I want you to admire me Im afraid you can see through me And find out that im not And find out you actually hate me What is it that will change your mind? I dont know, but if i feel this fear, There must be something there.Continue reading “Coils”
Puzzle piece
Like a puzzle piece that looks like the rest Trying to find its place Only to find its edges dont line up exactly. Finding no match, but seeing something close to it, It forces it’s place in the tapestry Either forming a gaping hole in the image Or snapping back out because of the tension.Continue reading “Puzzle piece”
Waste
Waste is a by product of the sacrifice life requires. Like ashes from a fire, corpses in the aftermath of your warmth. It has great potential to haunt us, if we don’t treat this sacrifice with the respect it deserves. Life requires death, that is the payment, and it should be honored.
Reckless Energy
There’s a reckless energy in my chest, somewhere in the fog there’s something trying to tell me not to listen to it but I can feel it’s frustration, it needs an outlet. You close your eyes and hope it doesn’t cause harm…..it might. The guilt though, somehow just makes it a one a way trip,Continue reading “Reckless Energy”
Lies
My calm and patient demeanor betrays the chaos that swirls beneath the skin in my chest and the foggy confusion in my head. I’m at odds in so many ways with this world That’s is hard sometimes to have a sense of direction A deep frustration as I try to cling to something in thisContinue reading “Lies”
Closet Social Online 