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Slowsand
The bills continue to come in The children raise their voices with needs I can’t afford Warning signs all around me from unresolved medical issues The notification of past due balances and penalties Checking account overdrawn and next pay check is still a week out The pantry is thinning and the gas tank almost onContinue reading “Slowsand”
When we’re old
We had said you and I, We would travel the world, if our paths met again. The moment seemed impossible, Yet something inside wanted to defy, So we took comfort in a promise we made, That when we’re old…. If our paths met again….. Yet today the sunrose and you were no longer here, WhatContinue reading “When we’re old”
A Wave
Waiting on excitement is such a fickle thing The wave comes in, lifts you up and leaves you Before you’re able to assimilate what just happened Why don’t we resent the ocean when it does the same? Because we didn’t expect the wave to linger. We resent excitement when it leaves us, We feel abandoned,Continue reading “A Wave”
I love this post. Unseen.
My finger trembled slightly, pressing down on the screen over the “like” icon, waiting for the other options to come up. The trembling echoed an inner trembling as well. Teary eyes whose trembling tensed and strained as the finger chose the heart option. “I love this post” I sigh in release as I let go.
Ever Deeper
Cars broken down, Rising debts, Midlife crisis, Unsatisfied with life, Tied to a day job, Dreaming of diving into my art. A/C down, triple digits heat. Home upkeep piling up, Unable to provide for my children, Opportunities to grow and explore, Limited to surviving, And running out of money before each pay day, Getting behindContinue reading “Ever Deeper”
Below the surface
The pain before the surface, the silent suffering. Gnawing away at enjoyment and hope Afraid that if I voice my suffering I validate my failure. I should be able to cope, I should be able to make ends meet, I should be able to provide for my family But my raising debts and the thingsContinue reading “Below the surface”
Friends online
I frequently get friend requests From empty or sketchy accounts. There was a small thrill at first, When my child inside reacted Someone wants to play with me! The boy wondered if it was a girl? Was she cute? What was she like? The artists speculated about meaningful conversations. Naive wonderings now replaced with aContinue reading “Friends online”
Weakness
My weaknesses, my demons lazzines and procrastination. My vice, comfort and ease It seems a monumental undertaking To gather enough energy To break the stasis A bubbling desire, a sensed greatness Shackled down by fear and uncertainty What a demon to fight? When it offers comfort as an alternative.
Frustrated by life
Frustrated by life Frustrated by me Frustrated by you Don’t know where it all began But I don’t want to it end like this. It’s been so long, I doubt I’ll recognize my heart North, South, East or West? Up or down? The doubt holds me down. Holds me in frustration.
Closet Social Online 