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Slowsand
The bills continue to come in The children raise their voices with needs I can’t afford Warning signs all around me from unresolved medical issues The notification of past due balances and penalties Checking account overdrawn and next pay check is still a week out The pantry is thinning and the gas tank almost onContinue reading “Slowsand”
A Wave
Waiting on excitement is such a fickle thing The wave comes in, lifts you up and leaves you Before you’re able to assimilate what just happened Why don’t we resent the ocean when it does the same? Because we didn’t expect the wave to linger. We resent excitement when it leaves us, We feel abandoned,Continue reading “A Wave”
I love this post. Unseen.
My finger trembled slightly, pressing down on the screen over the “like” icon, waiting for the other options to come up. The trembling echoed an inner trembling as well. Teary eyes whose trembling tensed and strained as the finger chose the heart option. “I love this post” I sigh in release as I let go.
Ever Deeper
Cars broken down, Rising debts, Midlife crisis, Unsatisfied with life, Tied to a day job, Dreaming of diving into my art. A/C down, triple digits heat. Home upkeep piling up, Unable to provide for my children, Opportunities to grow and explore, Limited to surviving, And running out of money before each pay day, Getting behindContinue reading “Ever Deeper”
Below the surface
The pain before the surface, the silent suffering. Gnawing away at enjoyment and hope Afraid that if I voice my suffering I validate my failure. I should be able to cope, I should be able to make ends meet, I should be able to provide for my family But my raising debts and the thingsContinue reading “Below the surface”
Weakness
My weaknesses, my demons lazzines and procrastination. My vice, comfort and ease It seems a monumental undertaking To gather enough energy To break the stasis A bubbling desire, a sensed greatness Shackled down by fear and uncertainty What a demon to fight? When it offers comfort as an alternative.
Frustrated by life
Frustrated by life Frustrated by me Frustrated by you Don’t know where it all began But I don’t want to it end like this. It’s been so long, I doubt I’ll recognize my heart North, South, East or West? Up or down? The doubt holds me down. Holds me in frustration.
How long
How long can you wait? Before making a decision you always knew you should take, but waited in inaction for things to change. How many years will go by? Living and disliking your life, ashamed and guilty. How much punishment can you take? Or will you wait for it to break you? Force you toContinue reading “How long”
Puzzle piece
Like a puzzle piece that looks like the rest Trying to find its place Only to find its edges dont line up exactly. Finding no match, but seeing something close to it, It forces it’s place in the tapestry Either forming a gaping hole in the image Or snapping back out because of the tension.Continue reading “Puzzle piece”
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